Waiting for Her

My mind tends to wander and ends up

back on the thought of you more often

than it should. I imagine the beat of your

heart, the smell of your skin, the sound of

your voice. I think about the way you

laugh, the curve of your smile, all while

thinking that I can’t wait to know you.

I don’t know who you are yet. I might

know your name, and I might know your

face, but I don’t know you. I mean, the

real you. The you who will tell me your

hopes and dreams. The you who will trust

me enough to share with me your biggest

fears and toughest failures. The you that

isn’t afraid to show emotion, the you that

doesn’t feel the need to wear a mask with

me. The you you’ve been holding back

from everyone else, the you you’ve been

waiting to share with just me. More than

that, I can’t wait for you to meet me.

But truth be told, I’m not even finished

meeting myself yet. I’ve just entered into a

new phase in my life. I’m learning more

than I ever have about the world, my line

of work, and about me. I’m being tested,

facing obstacles I never expected to face.

All in an effort to become the man I’ve

always wanted to be, the man I’m

destined to be. I know that I’ll never fully

become that man until we cross paths.

There are some lessons I will only be able

to learn when I meet you. The same applies

to you. It’s part of what makes us soul

mates. We guide the other. We complement

each other.

I don’t need you to rush to me. I’ve

learned that everyone comes to you at the

exact right moment. I’m not growing

impatient waiting for you, because I know

that you will finally arrive when I

most

need you. Please, take your time. There

will be plenty of time to catch up. Slow

down, you’ll get here soon. I’ll continue

to study hard and become my own person

while I wait, as I hope you will too.

I want you to know that as excited as I am,

I’m equally petrified. When I think about

us together, I dream of a version of me

who radiates passion and love. The only

problem is that as of today, I’ve never

loved. Love takes total trust. While I’ve

had feelings for others, I’ve never trusted

someone completely to the point where I

knew they would never hurt me. My

inability to fully trust those in my past has

still managed to leave me a few burns.

When I meet you though, I will be able to

trust you, and it will scare me more than

any horror film ever could. But when the

time comes, I know it’ll be right.

I’m in love with you, all of you. Every

inch, every freckle and flaw. I love it all,

and I haven’t even met you yet. I know

you’re looking for me. I hope you know

that I’m right here, waiting for you.

Through all the bullshit I face on my own,

I will always wait for you.

Love you now and forever,

The one you’re looking for.